Of course I'm offering still free sessions look at what came of this.
So I/we do hypnosis different then most in that we work on feelings inside of the body doing some EFT a little regression clearing the feeling, forgiveness, finding the good and moving on. So I'm trading sessions with this guy on skype cause he wants to practice this way of doing it. ( I'm picking on my self cause I give consent but the changes are the same with others too)
A practice "real" session a few nights ago over skype with a great man that will be at the this next regression hypnotherapy boot camp in April, first one he has done the "Randy and Matt" way. So my wife and I have had a tiff lately, bringing up that feeling, hit the pillow, cried, and tapped EFT. The feeling of sad in the pit of my gut. Great trace back and back and back working the feelings out at different times when I felt that way to the first time the ISE. I already knew this situation back when I was a child playing with toys with my brother and my mom comes in and asks us to pick up toys. My brother doesn't so my mom tells me to so I can be the example, and save my brother, and help the world.
I have to cut in here to bring you up to date first, One day feeling all great and that I thought I'm going to go to an AA meeting cause I know allot of those people are just really sad deep down in side and they are just medication them self to numb those feelings. I could help those people. As I was walking to my car my back seized up. I couldn't hardly walk but my will power and I went ahead and some how got in the car and went anyway. From the regression boot camps I knew my body was doing exactly what it was suppose to do breaking my back. I called good Randy and asked for the next appointment cause I couldn't do anything my back hurt so bad unless I was in some funny position. "off balance" So Randy sends me back into this feeling back and back working through them. I had been set up all my life from that young age that I was to be an example to the world, and going to save the world, the chosen generation, I had the power. Well the awareness came that it's not my job to save the world. For that matter it's not my job to save anybody. That AA meeting was the straw that broke my back. Dropped that bag of bricks right there in that office!!!
In the session I thought why here I've already been here, this is what is going on, but noticing feelings I felt a conditional love that I had too. Glad to get that feeling released and perception cleared up that I'm loved, accept my self, I'm good just the way I am. I don't have to save anybody to be loved. More awareness I can't save anybody, I can help with the tools we have but if they don't want to I can't make them and it's ok its not my job. It's not my problem I'm ok with that now.
Which brings me back to my wife that I can't help her if she doesn't want too. It's not my job or problem. My love from her isn't based on if I can fix / help her. Just cause she has bags in the past that she can't let go of it's not my problem. Big break through!!! Also today in emailing with her I realized I had taken things she had done personally too when they weren't against me. She is just being who she is, needs to be, desires to be. Another big realization ask for her forgiveness and set her free to be who she wants to be, needs to be, and desires to be. Let me post her response to this
OH DAVID THAT IS SO WONDERFUL OF YOU IT BRINGS TEARS OF JOY TO ME AND MAKES ME SO HAPPY! I FEEL SO LIGHT AND HAPPY THAT YOU SAID THAT. YOU BRING ME JOY IN MY LIFE AND I TRULY AND DEEPLY LOVE YOU AND ESPECIALLY AM HAPPY THAT YOU HAVE SAID THESE THINGS. XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX A MILLION TIMES OVER. YOU ARE MY HEART AND MY LIFE. I AM SO HAPPY!
can't beat this work. Love this stuff, so great full for Matt and Randy and the Great Man that night. Thanks, Thanks, Thanks again
Just sharing a little more,
1st I can't believe all this came about cause I was having a little upset or down set with my wife,
2nd I can't believe how "wrong" I had been all this time. If you would have asked me last week I would have assured you I was perfect in every way almost LOL
3rd Even today what may normally have ruffled my feathers wasn't even a feeling there.
4th such a better relation ship with her. Once again let me copy and past what she emailed me yesterday
wow you have been so amazing these last couple of days I have never been more at peace and at ease with you and wanting to be your wife more and more than ever before I really am starting to feel you care for me and about me more than ever before I just am amazed Thank you.
What can I say to that, What can I say and feel about her comment "I really am starting to feel you care for me" what have I been doing all these years? LOL.
Such an amazing transitional change, I cant grasp the change. I want this all the time, what else do I have in my closet that needs some awareness?