About 3 months ago, I started seeing a hypnotherapist for stress and confidence issues, which turned out to be the early stages of depression. The sessions were wonderful, and I've had quite the improvement to my mood and a ton less stress in my life. She helped me uncover the issues, and gave me the tools I needed to overcome those feelings. Since then, I've wanted to experiment more with hypnosis, curious about the other phenomenon I've read about and seen.
I eventually went to see a stage hypnosis show in person, and was instantly enthralled by the idea. I went to the very next show of that hypnotist, and volunteered to go on stage. To my dissapointment, I did not go into hypnosis. I did not respond physically to anything. No hot/cold sensations, no dropping on command, no believing I was a moon-man, no PHS, etc. The one thing I did notice, was even when I consciously wanted to perform a stunt (for the sake of participating), I was unable/unwilling to move. Oddly, he never dismissed me from the stage with the other non-responders. I was very dissapointed, but also determined to remedy the situation.
I went back to my therapist, hoping she might be able to help me in that regard. She felt it wasn't worth the effort for something she considered "fluff", since I already respond positively to the guided imagery and metaphor she used for therapy. The direct-suggestion style of stage and street hypnosis is the complete opposite of the methods she uses for analyticals like me.
Well, to put it midly, I refused to give up. Through a bit of luck, one of the hypnotists on another forum was attending a workshop two weeks ago, near where I live, and offered to meet with me for a casual hypnosis session. During that session, he managed to get me to experience a few things intermittenly, plus was able to get full-blown anesthesia. He pinched, jabbed, and twisted the skin on my arm while I watched, and I felt only the slightest touch sensation.
He also told me that despite my analytical nature, I've been relaxing so deep, that my body is falling asleep while my mind remains aware. He went on to say that it's very common for analyticals to have problems giving up control, even in the deepest levels of trance. He said I can work a bit on my own to "negotiate" with that part of myself, but I may need outside help to find out why it's so resistant. Since he doesn't live near me, I can't exaclty attend any more sessions with him, unless he happens to be in the area.
I realize this is not about therapy, and most therapists are reluctant to do casual or "recreational" hypnosis. But, it boils down to this: Every time I see a stage or street hypnosis video, and I see how the people respond, something in the back of my mind latches onto that, and the desire to experience it becomes more intense. It may not be rational, but that part of me wants to become more like those people, and it drives me to keep trying.
So now, I'm looking for a hypnotist in the Lancaster, PA area, who may be willing to work with me. If any of you happen to be, or know of someone, within an hour of here, who is willing to help, please let me know.
I would also appreciate any pointers or tips you can give me that may help me get "there".