God Speaks Through the Subconscious....in the Shower

      I've had a rough last few weeks with an ear infection that comes and goes.  I've actually been trying to get rid of it for longer than that.  I've tried a lot of stuff that usually works for me very well, and it hasn't.  It came back with a vengeance once I really wanted to rev up my meditations.  I got so down about it that I cried.  I let out my feelings about how I try to meditate and do all the exercises in meditation to get closer to God, but it's so difficult with this pressure in my ears, that makes me unfocused and tired. 

     This morning I got up and let go.  I began just saying you are in control God and when you are ready, not only will I be well, but nothing will keep me from all the meditations stuff I try to do.  Sometimes, things are a process and you are in control.  I'll keep at it, but I'm not going to beat myself up anymore. 

     I decided to get into a good feeling place by making a list of goals I want to accomplish.  Then I put each one in the center of the page in a circle.  I drew daisy petals all around the circle. and in the petals I put all the things that add up to my goal.  For instance, I wrote, "I'm Happy" in the center circle on one page and the petals had things like, My dogs wag their tails and smile at me, my clients get better, I feel great, I have energy, I love to meditate, I feel joy, delicious food, great deep sleep, enjoying nature etc.

     After working on several of these, I said a prayer of blessing that I would attain them.  I got up and took a shower.  After being in the shower for a few mintues,  I realized I was singing a song in my head.  I think that songs that you sing spontaneously often are messages about your inner state or a message to you.  So I tried to figure out the song. 

      It was "Just to see you smile" by Tim Mcgraw.  That one line is all I kept singing in my head over and over again and it goes like this, "Just to see you smile, I'd do anything.... that you wanted me to."  And I realized that God was giving me a message.  He would help me with my goals and he knows my biggest one is to be as near to him as possible.   It's in the works.  I don't have to worry.  He wants for me what I want. 

     Here is a link to the song....not about God exactly .....http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Amsivcy8fBs